This day in 1973, the Mother left her body. Or did she?…
Shall we say then rather that ‘she passed away’?… Well, again, did she?…
What was remaining of her already very frail 95 years old body did stop breathing, and her heart had stopped already too. That visible physical body of hers was then indeed put into the ‘Samadhi’ upper vault, under the ‘Service’ tree in the central courtyard of the Ashram. Sri Aurobindo’s body had been put there first, in the lower vault, on December 9th, 1950.
This is always a period in the year when I sigh often, sad of not being able yet to see either of them with my open eyes, although I can feel their Presence around me and inside me, for which I am ever grateful.
Sri Aurobindo had to go away from the Physical world in order to bring about faster the activation of the Supramental Consciousness-Force dormant in Matter, so when he left he had transferred to Mother’s body all the higher consciousness his physical frame was already containing. In a way, then, it was not surprising that I wouldn’t see him in some new, transformed body, as for the sake of the Earth as a whole he had left his physical body behind before that body could be fully transformed.
I had been able on November 18th 1973 to see with my open eyes the true reality of her physical form, behind the material appearance that was the only thing photographs could catch and show afterwards. The sight of that living reality of her in the Subtle Physical dimension, and the inner contact of my entire being with That, had had such a tremendous impact on me that it is that incredibly wonderful memory that is still alive in me, making of the 18th November the important day for me personally to celebrate each year, instead of the 17th.
Except for the totally unexpected and spontaneous awakening of my own body-cells’ consciousness later on, though, I never have received any further sign or vision of the new, transformed body that had been built by her cells over the years in the Subtle Physical dimension, and that she had seen herself using there in several occasions.
If some other persons connected inwardly with the Mother have already seen her, with their open eyes or in a vision, using that new body, I would love to know about that. If any of them happens to read this, would they please contact me? As a researcher too, I would like to know.
What I am sure of anyway is that it is the best possible thing that has happened, what could best benefit the Earth’s evolutive progress, and that makes me grateful and joyful in spite of my longing to see again the Mother, this time in her new body…