Only Through this Blog as a Whole Will You Get the Overall Picture

Since I started this Research Blog in 2011 as one more way to reach out to other people anywhere who might be interested, each of my posts has inevitably addressed only one part of the Full Picture needed to understand how it all works within ourselves once we consciously take up the path of Conscious Evolution, particularly as this Integral Yoga Sri Aurobindo and the Mother devised especially for this purpose.

It may have started in its own limited way long before, sometimes already in our early childhood, with strange happenings now and then that we didn’t even know were ‘spiritual experiences, although later on we may have realized they actually were. It has been the case with me, so I know, but still it is only when I read for the first time the first lines of ‘The Life Divine’, my first book by Sri Aurobindo (https://labofevolution.wordpress.com/2016/05/30/my-first-contact-with-sri-aurobindo-1971/), that my whole life has really entered consciously that Path, which it has never left since. Massive experience after massive experience ensued, already while I was still in France, and then as soon as I arrived in Auroville it was as if the Inner Motor was finally turned really on for good.

So my visitors shouldn’t judge of my present overall spiritual condition only from the recent posts in which I have purposely revealed some of the inner flaws that, like anyone else, I too have had or still have to conquer – or in fact to offer at some point in total humility to our Divine Mother, the Divine as the eternal Mother of the divine child eternally growing in me: for only with Her all-powerful Help can we ever truly overcome an inner obstacle… or simply feel the obstacle suddenly melt and altogether vanish from our being.

It is our Psychic Being, the being of the Soul within us, that gives us that spontaneous, deep and irresistible, childlike Love for the Divine, and the total trust in Him/Her that makes us spontaneously give ourselves totally to that Wonder of Love and Wisdom and Power and Delight that we gradually find is also the One, unique Being our own Higher Self is a particular aspect of, from eternity and for eternity.

So if you read more of those past posts I have also written here since 2011, you will see that the required Psychicisation and Spiritualisation processes have been actually going full blast in me since decades, and far from abating, it is only increasing ever, either in depth or in vastness of the experiences lived again and again in various forms so that the entire being, down to its very body-cells, becomes more and more impregnated with the Divine Reality hiding secretly in each of us, waiting to be discovered and lived ever more constantly as our new normal life.

The little amusing story that I wrote about in my just previous post, is only the latest of those ever surprising advances one may see manifest in oneself, as our Divine Mother makes good use of absolutely any circumstance in our outer life to help us understand something more, or become able to do or be something we couldn’t before. In that way She cuts out every time better one more facet of the future fully revealed divine diamond that each of us is…

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So for grasping the entire Process through which She does in each of us at every moment this wonderful revealing, it is also not enough to read just the last few posts I have written. Each and every post from before has also presented some other part of this Process, that might be useful for you personally, if not today, perhaps at some later point when you suddenly remember having read it and its contents become at once exactly relevant for that moment in your own life…

That’s what Conscious Evolution is about, being simply described this way or that other way along my posts, showing how charmingly varied and ever unexpected this whole Process is, that our entire life gradually becomes, as we enter more and more into the World of the Wonderful.

 

 

 

 

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About ‘The Rich Complexity of our Being’

A long and very interesting comment has just been posted about my recent article, ‘The Rich Complexity of Our Being’ (https://labofevolution.wordpress.com/2017/09/09/the-rich-complexity-of-our-being/).

It deserves an equally long, or even longer answer, as it is on various points that probably have been questions for other readers as well, so I’m bringing that long comment right here and will use it for this new post, which will be a kind of dialogue between that friend and me, through my answers (in italics) interwoven with the questions and other points he raised in his comment:

Bhaga,
Your quote from Shri Aurobindo was both clarifying and leading me to a further question.
As I’m learning more about Swedenborg’s ideas or interpreted journeys I see increasing similarities to Aurobindo’s ideas. Though granted it is presumptive to say anything about Aurobindo’s work as I know next to nothing just what I’ve glimmered in your blog.

I salute in passing the great Swedenborg, whom I may have indeed studied more long ago, as you do now, had I not have already a vision even vaster – truly all-encompassing – from the even more immense and multitudinous experience of  Sri Aurobindo and the Mother.

2 of my guiding ideas.
1st, A wise man once told me, “there are no new truths”. (how could there be?) Beware of anyone who is selling such.

Of course there can be only one real Truth. But that Truth is not, as our mind, by its very nature divisive, makes us believe, one single point of view which makes all the other points of view necessarily false. The real Truth (the Supramental Truth, as Sri Aurobido and the Mother call it),  is the complete Reality of All There Is in its actually all encompassing wholeness, spherical so to say. It includes within Itself all those opposite points of view that to our mind seem to be contradicting each other. The mental truth constantly says “either this, or that”, while the Supramental Truth says “This, and that, and also that, and everything else too”. The best symbolic representation of this Truth as total Wholeness is the spherical shape of the Matrimandir, the central building of Auroville, itself founded as “a City at the service of Truth”:

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The problem of the Mental Consciousness is that its vision is by nature limited, and so, unable to see and comprehend the infinite Totality that the Truth is. So if it is correct that there can be no “new truths” as such, still our present perception of the total Truth may not be complete yet at all, and we may very well have still to discover new aspects of the complete Truth that we were not aware of before… and that might be called ‘new truths ‘ in that sense.

Moreover, not only is our mental perception terribly and inevitably limited, but that limited perception itself is also constantly altered  and modified by any mental beliefs each of us may happen to have: our beliefs will constantly add their own filter or coloration or twist to the perception in itself, turning it sometimes into the very opposite of what it really is. Our contemporary Science, for example, through its present materialistic belief system, is making itself blind to anything that may be quite real, but not acceptable as such within the parameters that Science still holds as those defining reality. With such a ‘reductionist’ outlook on everything, our Science misses some important aspects of the Total Truth that were already known to ancient cultures but are for this reason presently excluded of what is accepted as real by our Science. Those forgotten or rejected aspects of Truth will have then to be re-discovered gradually, again as if they were “new truths”.

2nd, God is everywhere always broadcasting to all unceasingly. Obvious when you think about it.

God may be indeed “everywhere always broadcasting to all unceasingly”, but the receivers are of all kinds and capacities in their individual uniqueness!….

But wait!… It seems this is exactly what you are saying too: you do put the question first, but then you yourself give the answer right away as well:

So, why the myriad churches, religions, prophets and saints and sages?
Up until very recently there hasn’t been a possibility of global communication. Because of all the different, times and lands, peoples, cultures, intelligences and customs on this planet this Unitive-intelligent-cosmic-being has had to appear throughout all these varying time places and peoples, in whatever way would be accessible to them. Something like the variety you hear in NDE stories.

Exactly, I would say!

For instance, the Old Testament stories happened for some tribes in an area of north Africa. Then the Christos came as a reformer. Look what some zealots and political maneuverings made of that.
This leads me to believe that there isn’t a best, much less an only way, or teaching.

How much I agree with you on that!…

And this is what Sri Aurobindo and the Mother themselves say too, mind you; even within the overall method of Integral Yoga they proposed, they advocated and used for each of their very different disciples an equally diverse way of guiding and helping them on their gradual discovery of what would become for each of them his or her unique way, similar to that of some others perhaps, but only to a certain extent.

Though because of ego’s need to somehow feel special

Do you mean ‘superior’? Because in truth, we are all special indeed, but that doesn’t mean in any way that we are superior to anyone else, as we all are an expression of the Divine, with each an equal potential to manifest our aspect of the Divine better and better…

the followers of each teacher and teaching need to assert theirs is the best or true way.

For sure there can be no “only true way”, as that is much too vague and universal a statement, making it a claim of absolute exclusivity of the Truth.

Nevertheless, if someone’s followers do say that theirs is the best way, but add immediately the specific spiritual goal or kind of spiritual achievement that the way they are following is best for, then they may be quite correct. The kind of training for running a marathon is not the same as for running a 100mts sprint, is it? And it is rather important to choose a coach who has experience and success with the kind of race you want to run, for s/he will be the best for that, obviously.

Or if you want to go to the Himalayas, obviously again you will choose a guide who has been there, and not one who has been instead to the Dead Sea. Both goals are equally valid in themselves, but depending on the one you are interested in, you will most certainly take the guide who has been there successfully, and so can lead you there too.

This reminds me of Krishna Das’s answer to what is the best practice? “The one you do”.

Quite a sensible fellow, this Krishna Das!…  But still, that statement too would need  the mention of your aim to be complete: if the practice you do is the wrong practice for what you are trying to achieve, that will not be of any help for you anyway, or it might even create in you obstacles and difficulties for reaching your real goal. Just one example to clarify this point: the kind of muscles you acquire through body-building will be rather a hindrance if you are trying to become a great swimmer…!

The same wise man said beware of ‘only solutions’.

If they smack of the usual mental exclusivism, your wise man is right; and yet, it is true also that one safety lock can only be opened by the key meant for it … and the equivalent can apply for spiritual goals too.

Which I, now say this as, ‘it doesn’t need to be either/or. It can be both/plus.

In general terms, yes, but again, for specific needs you may require specific means, employed either by you if you can, of better by the divine loving Wisdom that will take care of your evolutive process at every step if you entrust it to the care of what we can call the Divine as our Divine Mother.

Wisdom guides have specific work to do here and it will come thru them as specifically as a person of that time, place, talents or tendencies or strengths of the guide, saint Avatar or whatever.

Well, we do agree on that, it would seem!

It’s the devotees who don’t like ambiguity, who want to nail everything down. Being able to quote chapter and verse as is said about Christian Bible pundits.

This is quite true of those disciples (in any path) who tend, through a too rigid mind, to give more importance to the letter than to the spirit, and want everything codified and carved in stone, so as not to have to feel and apply at all the spirit behind the letter. But in the case of the evolutive, and so, all-inclusive path that the Integral Yoga is, there is often the necessity of identifying for example more precisely the various parts of our being, as Sri Aurobindo explained in the text I quoted in that previous article of mine we have been now commenting about together… I hope my answers  have been helpful!

Keep up the good work,
Silrak

Introducing my own Inner Family

At the end of my previous post, which was about ‘The Rich Complexity of our Being’, I called all those various inner parts of us, in a half joking manner,  our ‘Inner Family’… A rather dysfunctional one to start with, it seems, for most of us!… But let’s not lose hope: harmony can be learned, also within ourselves, through the practice of the Integral Yoga meant  precisely for that integral transformation.

Well, over the years I started having vague impressions of what the main inner parts of me looked like, so to say, or rather what they felt like to me, but for long it remained a very vague, blurry kind of picture, never reaching the stage of a clear one for any of them.

But then something happened in the last few years, which enables me today to introduce you to at least some of those members of my Inner Family, with , lo and behold, some actual (symbolic) images of them!!!

What happened is that since many-many years I have been keeping notes of my dreams and of my experiences at the cellular level. For keeping regularly such an important record for my research work about Conscious Evolution, I regularly got quite simply some little notebooks, the kind that kids use in school, from our internal small general store in Auroville.

For years the covers were photos of beautiful landscapes from all over the world, for awakening a concern for the environment in the kids who would use them. It was really nicely done. I myself enjoyed a lot looking at those spectacular places on the Earth that I would probably never visit, but at least I could know of and admire that way.

But one day when I needed soon a new notebook and went looking for one, all that was available was in a completely different style: the covers now were amusing drawings, probably more likely to attract children. Most of them didn’t attract me at all, though. Until I found one that immediately made me laugh out loud, right in the store, with the joy of recognition:

‘But this is my mental being!!!’ I exclaimed under my breath, and started smiling at it with total glee. The drawing was this one:

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I loved it!!! Without an instant of hesitation, I took it home and was eager to start using it when the previous one did come to an end.

This notebook was quite thick actually, so it stayed with me for an enjoyable rather long time, although I wrote on it daily, and often quite lengthy entries. But still after a while I had to go and find the next one…

This time, no funny drawings on the covers of the available notebooks. A different style again, and not inspiring at all. None of those that I looked at I liked, so what to do?… I kept still looking in the little pile. And suddenly, down at the very bottom, what I saw took my breath away. It was this:

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‘Oh my, a Unicorn!… What a beauty… So powerful, yet so calmly at rest in that lovely protected clearing, in that soft Soul Light… Wow, this must be a symbolic image for something of my Soul, of my Psychic Being! This picture is a pure Blessing from the Divine. I’m taking this home.’

There was one more notebook with the very same cover, of course I gladly added it to the first one.

Those two were again of the thick kind, so they took care of my daily notes for quite a few months. It was pure bliss to look at the cover every time I would use these two notebooks, the second one right after the first was finished. When still finally the time to find a new one came once more, it was with a heavy heart that I went again to that notebook shelf in the store: how could I ever find anything as great as that so resplendent and peaceful Unicorn?…

Surprise: the funny drawings were back on the covers for the whole new pile that was there. I sighed. Would I find again something at least worthwhile, even if only again in that funny style?

Almost at once it came up, quite funny indeed, and yet so charming in its own way:

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Just a split second looking at it, and then I knew, and smiled a huge, sweet grin of recognition again: this was my emotional being, of course! Unmistakable, in every detail of it, just like for the one I had found before that was also such a perfect image of my mental being!!!

I had to laugh softly, thinking of my emotional being so wonderfully rendered in that unexpected but so true portrait of it!…. ‘But wait a minute’, I suddenly thought, ‘what does that mean, getting now this specific little cover after the two wonderful Unicorns?’ Well, I had some idea what it meant, and I wasn’t sure I liked it: it meant that after the wonderful, long inner period that had rested and reinforced my inner strength and purity of purpose – right at the cellular level of my being – the Divine was now warning me somehow, with a smile, through this new so cute and amusing little cover, that my emotional being was going to get some further training, probably so as to be reinforced and purified too!

The ‘Unicorn’ period was still not over, as the second one of those notebooks was still only halfway through, so I kind of forgot what was likely to come next for my sadhana, But several weeks back the second ‘Unicorn’ notebook did come to an end and then came the turn of the cute, sweet girly teddy-bear all in pink, with her pink heart balloon begging for love just as her shy smile did…

My visitors here on this blog know only of the emotional shocks I mentioned, which related to Blogging, but of course that vulnerability is there also in other areas of my life, in an extreme way that as a young adult I soon saw had no cause at all in this lifetime. As I discovered later in Auroville (while in a deliberate trance), it is actually one of the two major ancient problems from another life, that I scripted myself to take up again in this lifetime, knowing that my deep spiritual progress this time around would enable me at last to heal that scarred and scared part of myself once and for all.

Well, when that waiting little notebook came finally to be used, oh my, that was it indeed!!! Since that month of July, emotional shocks from the most unexpected quarters have simply rained on me like hail. I was grateful to the Divine that thanks to this gentle but so clear warning through the new notebook’s cover, I was ready, and didn’t take anything too badly…! As you may have noticed in the end of my post about the shocks related to Blogging, a very liberating sense of humor started even to express itself about it all, right in my emotional being itself… So it is still for the time being a ‘Work in progress’, no doubt, but it is progressing indeed!

Now that you have some idea of what at least those main members of my Inner Family are like in my own case, what I will describe in future posts of the evolutive process as experienced by each of them will be, I hope, a livelier and funnier read, while giving you also, most importantly, a good example of what the Integral Yoga means in daily life…

 

 

 

My Work for Auroville Since 1972

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A non-Aurovilian spiritual seeker from the US, who came to South India several times during the last few of the eighteen years I spent at Repos (then the main Beach Community of Auroville), around 2014, and who became a friend then, is still keeping in touch through email and this Research Blog of mine, as we have in common many spiritual interests.  But a recent comment by him made me realize suddenly that I had somehow left him ignorant of what my work for Auroville actually was, and this, at a time when it seemed pretty mush like I was just looking after Repos as a whole and its Guest facilities in particular. When that whole era came to an end because of the coastal erosion that brutally wiped out the place, what work remained for me to do for Auroville after that must have been a rather confusing question indeed for those who didn’t know better!

As quite a few of my visitors here know me only through this Blog, they could very well be as ignorant, or at least not have a clear idea at all either, of what has been my work for Auroville, and where, since joining in 1972. To remedy this, I am posting a copy of my reply to that friend, as a cheerful piece of information for all, that will later be permanently available as an added Page, for it will help people figure out which Auroville place I am talking about in this or that Post, why, and in which area it is located:

Dear friend,

You are asking me:
“So are you working for Auroville again? Volunteering at a library or research? ”

My surprised answer is:

But I never stopped working for Auroville!…  😀
There is a misunderstanding somewhere, it would seem, in your image of me and my work for AV, that needs clarifying… Here goes:

From my arrival in 1972 as a young certified teacher in the Classics (yes, French, Latin and Greek Literature!…), I did much appreciated work teaching French as a second language at the various schools starting to exist, and also helping build Matrimandir, while already doing a lot of important evolutive research work on my own, unofficially, because I couldn’t help but doing it, for my own evolution first of all.
But in 1984 I was led to become very officially the founder and head researcher of the ‘Laboratory of Evolution – Centre for Human Unity’ (LOE-CHU), still located for the time being at Bharat Nivas, just next to the small official Indian Post-office also located there.
The ever richer Specialized Library that the LOE-CHU has now, was actually started and developed by me from 1984 on, and run entirely by me for the first several years. But it was so time-consuming that the Research aspect of my work was hindered, so it is with relief that I finally entrusted our Library to another then young Aurovilian lady who proposed herself for that work in 1990, and still does it with a small team of other Aurovilians, while a few other persons joined me also for the Research aspect.
I still attend to the Library work one afternoon a week, although by now all my other work is done at ‘Luminosity’ (in my little office downstairs or even my home upstairs) as there is no room left in our small building at Bharat Nivas: the Research and all the work it entails has to happen elsewhere – but at least with the big advantage of having all this ever growing amount of documentation available right in our LOE-CHU Library, which many other Aurovilians and Guests cherish too.
After twenty years of unexpectedly but increasingly having experiences of an awakening Cellular Consciousness, which I kept carefully secret, in 1996 the secret accidentally was revealed. The workshops about that cutting edge specific topic and the Integral Yoga in general, that I was asked to give in AV from 1998 (from 2001 to 2007, also invited all over the world) have never stopped: even while I was still at Repos, and later more inland, at Djaïma, for two years, people would keep coming to me for that, and now too of course, as I live more in the Centre, at Luminosity. But I don’t want to travel any longer, it is too tiring.
The blog I am writing since 2011 is only an addition to all that, one more expression of the experiential as well as theoretical Evolutive Research that is going on in me for so many years, literally at every single moment of my life and at all levels of my being, as the Integral Yoga says ‘All life is Yoga’, and for evolutive purposes it cannot but be that way…!
So I would never stop that evolutive work and this research I love doing about it, which I am ever so grateful to the Divine that it has become since 1984 my official work for AV, providing me with a maintenance for my basic needs, and so enabling me not to need any other outer work than what is anyway my true passion, my life’s mission to both live and document.
And that Research includes of course as well whatever evolutive progress I notice anywhere else, in Auroville itself or in other parts of the world…. for example in the USA: this is how thanks to miraculous funding I visited twice (in 1991 and 2001) both the Edgar Cayce Foundation and the Monroe Institute, that I had first discovered the existence and work of much earlier, through my own Research (see some of my blog-posts about that, under the Cayce and Monroe categories).
Hoping that all confusion about my work for Auroville is now cleared for good,

Bhaga 🙂

Au Père Ganesh-Noël

(TRADUCTION D’UN ANCIEN ARTICLE EN ANGLAIS, ‘Father Ganesh-Christmas’,  https://labofevolution.wordpress.com/2016/03/18/father-ganesh-christmas/ , pour mieux éclairer le sens profond de mon article récent, “Fêtant Ganesh une fois de plus…” )
Dans le volume 1 (1958) de son «Agenda» (français pour «Journal»), on peut lire comment la Mère a déclaré à son confident Satprem, au sujet du dieu hindou Ganesh (également appelé Ganeshan, Ganapati …), que d’abord elle ne pouvait pas croire qu’il  existait vraiment comme on le décrit généralement, c’est à dire… avec une tête d’éléphant sur un corps par ailleurs humain.

Comment explique-t-on une apparence aussi étrange?! … La légende veut que son père, le Seigneur Shiva lui-même, soit venu voir son épouse, la grande déesse Parvati, mais elle prenait son bain et ne voulant pas être dérangée, elle avait demandé à leur deuxième fils, Ganesh, de garder sa porte. Quand Ganeshan, fidèle à l’ordre de sa mère, a refusé l’entrée même à son propre père, eh bien, Shiva, furieux, a coupé la tête de son fils … et puis le regrettant immédiatement bien sûr, a pris la tête du premier autre être qu’il a vu – qui se trouvait être un éléphant – et l’a placée sur le corps du pauvre Ganeshan afin qu’il puisse vivre à nouveau! … Mais ce petit problème n’a pas empêché Ganesh de devenir extrêmement populaire partout en Inde, en tant que dieu non seulement de la Connaissance, mais aussi de la Richesse: le Gentil Donneur de la prospérité financière et de l’abondance.

La Mère était responsable de manière matérielle et spirituelle de l’Ashram entier de Sri Aurobindo à Pondichéry. En préliminaire au texte cité ci-dessous, précisons que tous les mois, étnt donné tout l’argent voulu pour la nourriture, l’hébergement, les vêtements, etc., des plus de deux mille disciples vivant là en tant qu’ Ashramites, malgré les revenus des maisons d’hôtes et des entreprises reliées à l’Ashram, ainsi que les nombreux dons de quelques riches dévots, la Mère avait le plus souvent du mal à trouver toutes les ressources nécessaires pour couvrir toutes ces dépenses … Alors voici ce qu’elle avait à dire ce jour-là à propos de Ganesh :

 

“N’est-ce pas, c’était comme cela: il y a ce Ganesh2… Nous avions une méditation (il y a de cela plus de trente ans) dans la salle où l’on fait la distribution de «Prospérité»3, nous étions huit ou dix, je crois; (…) et un jour qu’il était question de prospérité, ou de richesse ou de je ne sais quoi, j’ai pensé (on dit toujours que Ganesh est le dieu de l’argent, de la fortune, des biens de ce monde), j’ai pensé: «Ce dieu avec une trompe d’éléphant, toute cette histoire, est-ce que ce n’est pas de l’imagination humaine?» Là-dessus, on médite, et voilà que je vois entrer et s’installer en face de moi un être vivant, absolument vivant et lumineux, avec la trompe comme ça… et souriant! Alors moi, dans ma méditation, je dis: «Ah! c’est donc vrai que tu existes!» – «Naturellement que j’existe! et tu n’as qu’à me demander tout ce que tu veux, au point de vue argent bien entendu, je te le donnerai.»

J’ai demandé, et pendant à peu près dix ans, c’est venu comme cela (geste à flots). C’était épatant. Je demandais, et au Darshan suivant, ou un mois après, ou quelques jours après (cela dépendait), ça venait.

Et puis la guerre est arrivée et toutes les difficultés, et cette augmentation formidable des gens et des dépenses (la guerre a coûté les yeux de la tête: n’importe quoi coûtait dix fois plus qu’avant), et tout d’un coup, fini, plus rien. Pas exactement plus rien, mais un petit filet maigrelet. Et quand je demandais, ça ne venait pas. Alors un jour, j’ai interviewé Ganesh à travers son image (!) et je lui ai dit: «Et ta promesse?» – «Je ne peux pas faire ça, c’est trop pour moi, mes moyens sont très limités!» Ah! je me suis dit: (riant) ça, c’est de la déveine! Et je ne comptais plus sur lui.

Une fois, quelqu’un a même demandé au Père Noël! C’était une jeune fille qui était musulmane et qui avait une sympathie spéciale pour «Father Christmas» (je ne sais pas pourquoi, ça ne faisait pas partie de sa religion!) Sans rien me dire, elle a appelé le Père Noël et elle lui a dit: «Mère ne croit pas en toi, tu dois lui faire un cadeau pour lui prouver que tu existes. Pour Noël, tu lui donneras ça.» C’est arrivé!… Elle était très fière.

Mais c’était seulement une fois comme cela; et Ganesh, fini.”

 (“Agenda de Mère” vol.1, 6 juillet 1958)

Mère, quelques années plus tard, le 4 janvier 1964 («Agenda» vol. 5) expliqua pourquoi les moyens de Ganeshan n’étaient plus suffisants:

“J’avais eu une rencontre assez intéressante avec Ganapati1 (il y a bien des années) et il m’avait promis de me donner ce dont j’avais besoin, et il l’a fait pendant très longtemps, certainement plus de dix ans, et il l’a fait largement. Puis tout a changé à l’Ashram; c’était après la guerre, les enfants sont venus et nous avons débordé; nous sommes devenus beaucoup plus compliqués et beaucoup plus grands, et on a commencé à toucher les pays étrangers, particulièrement l’Amérique. Et je continuais à rester en contact avec Ganapati; je ne peux pas dire que je lui faisais un poudjâ (!) mais tous les matins, je mettais une fleur devant son image. Et un matin, je lui ai dit: «Pourquoi as-tu cessé de faire ce que tu as fait pendant si longtemps?» J’ai écouté et il m’a clairement répondu: «Ton besoin est devenu trop grand.» Je n’ai pas très bien compris, parce qu’il peut disposer de fortunes plus grandes que ce dont j’avais besoin. Puis je me suis tournée vers Ganapati et je lui ai dit: «Qu’est-ce que c’est que tout ça?» Et j’ai vu clairement (ce n’est pas lui qui a répondu, c’était Sri Aurobindo), j’ai vu clairement que Ganapati n’a de pouvoir que sur ceux qui ont foi en lui, c’est-à-dire que c’est limité à l’Inde, et que j’avais besoin d’argent d’Amérique, de France, d’Angleterre, d’Afrique… et qu’il n’avait pas de pouvoir là, et que, par conséquent, il ne pouvait pas aider. C’est devenu très clair, j’étais tranquille, j’ai compris: «C’est très bien, il a fait ce qu’il a pu, et puis c’est tout.» Et il est vrai que je continue à recevoir de l’Inde, mais pas assez; d’autant que depuis l’Indépendance, la moitié de l’Inde est ruinée et tous les gens qui me donnaient beaucoup d’argent ne m’en donnent plus, parce qu’ils ne peuvent plus – ce n’est pas qu’ils ne veulent plus, mais ils ne peuvent plus.”

Comment tout cela se rapporte-t-il à mon expérience personnelle et à ma croissance intérieure évolutive, on pourrait se le demander …
Eh bien, dès mes premières années de vie à Auroville, je savais que Mère ne voulait pas que des poudjas (cérémonies, rituels) soient faites ici pour tous ces dieux, car Auroville n’est pas une place pour la religion, étant un lieu d’évolution spirituelle. Mais j’avais remarqué pourtant aussi que Mère semblait faire en quelque sorte une exception à propos de Ganesh: elle avait permis à une vieille dame indienne, une disciple dévouée, vivant dans une des premières communautés, de garder le petit temple de Ganesh qu’elle avait près de chez elle et même de faire sa poudja pour célébrer le Chaturthi de Ganesh (anniversaire) chaque année; De plus, d’autres Auroviliens pouvaient également se joindre à cette femme pour l’occasion.
Je dois y être passée une ou deux fois au cours de ma première décennie d’existence aurovilienne, et c’était tout.
Bien sûr, plus tard, pendant les près de deux décennies que j’ai vécues plus récemment à Repos, sur la plage d’Auroville, alors que je devais employer toute une équipe de travailleurs pour s’occuper de l’endroit, chaque année je les ai rejoints pour la fidèle  célébration annuelle qu’ils voulaient avoir là-bas, dans Repos même – mais c’était en fait pour les travailleurs plutôt que pour Ganesh …

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Ainsi, comme on peut le voir, je n’ai personnellement jamais méprisé, mais jamais non plus accordé beaucoup d’importance à Ganesh.

C’est à dire, jusqu’au Ganesh Chaturthi de l’année dernière, le 17 septembre 2015 …

Je devais en avoir assez d’une longue série personnelle de “vaches maigres” et “très maigres”, qui m’avait vue me débattre encore et encore juste pour avoir assez à manger. C’est à peine si je réussissais à terminer chaque mois avec ma «maintenance», le montant qu’ Auroville pourrait me donner pour mes besoins de base.

Donc, en ce jour précis de Ganesh Chaturthi, j’ai fait quelque chose que je n’avais jamais fait auparavant: je me suis adressée à Ganesh, intérieurement.

Oui, Ganesh lui-même, sous la forme de la minuscule image plastifiée sur socle d’un adorable Ganesh tout rose, que j’avais toujours conservée, avec un petit livre tout aussi petit et rose, minuscule mais épais avec de nombreuses petites pages vierges très réelles entre ses deux couvertures roses si joyeuses.

Ce jour-là, soudainement saisie par une impulsion intérieure irrésistible, j’ai résolument saisi le Petit Livre Rose, l’ai ouvert et sur sa première page j’ai écrit (en rose, bien sûr) ma première prière pour Ganesh. Les mots qui me sont venus intérieurement étant sacrés, je ne les répéterai pas ici; c’était tout simplement mes mots à moi, de toutes façons. Tout ce que je peux dire, c’est que je voulais vraiment dire ce que j’ai dit, et je l’ai dit avec une ardeur fervente, et en même temps une simplicité absolue: j’ai  laisse mon coeur parler, comme on peut parler à un ami de confiance …

Et puis, après ce jour-là, j’ai oublié tout cela.

Mais, quelques mois plus tard, ce qui m’a fait y penser à nouveau a été … les résultats. Les résultats très évidents et étonnants que, en regardant en arrière, je pouvais voir depuis lors: de presque partout et presque tous les amis que je pouvais avoir eu ici à un moment donné, l’argent ou les cadeaux avaient commencé à venir, goutte à goutte d’abord, et bientôt à verse! Comme un flot pratiquement constant, s’occupant de tous mes besoins chaque fois qu’il en apparaissait un! … Si j’écrivais la liste ici, mes chers visiteurs seraient aussi sidérés que je le suis devenue, par le pouvoir tranquille mais indéniable de Ganesh se manifestant enfin dans ma vie après que je le lui ai finalement demandé pour de bon, quand vraiment j’étais à bout …

Du 17 septembre 2015 à Noël est venue la première vague montante, qui a abouti à la fête de Noël elle-même, que j’ai passée dans mon nouveau chez moi à Luminosité (voir l’histoire complète dans l’un de mes derniers articles, https://labofevolution.wordpress.com/ 2016/01/15 / the-greatest-and-most-beautiful-christmas-gift-i-ever-got /). Et la veille du Nouvel An, une autre vague, pour encore remplir les manques qui pouvaient avoir subsisté dans ma vie, matériellement et douloureusement.

Mes besoins ne sont pas du tout grands, soyos clairs; mais lorsque même cela n’est pas couvert depuis longtemps, cela devient un peu pénible, et l’on finit par se demander pourquoi sa vie doit être vraiment si misérable: le Yoga Intégral n’est pas du tout un chemin d’ascétisme délibéré ni de privations au nom de la spiritualité, les anciens vœux de pauvreté que bon nombre d’entre nous peuvent avoir prononcés dans d’autres vies en tant que religieuses ou moines, ne doivent pas encore durer dans cette vie-ci!….

Nous ne sommes pas là pour souffrir, mais au contraire, même dans ce monde de la matière physique révélant peu à peu le Divin, nous sommes ici pour manifester nous-mêmes aussi de mieux et mieux ce Divin que nous sommes tous en vérité, depuis toute éternité et pour toute éternité ... Mais le Divin doit, d’une manière ou d’une autre, nous donner les moyens matériels pour cela!

Eh bien, il semble que de Ganesh, le fidèle allié de Mère pour le travail évolutif qu’elle a dû accomplir à grande échelle, j’ai enfin fait mon allié aussi, pour mes propres petits besoins et travail évolutifs personnels: comme je l’expliquerai dans des articles futurs, mon travail aussi a beaucoup profité des cadeaux de Noël de Ganeshan… à tel point que, aujourd’hui, je l’appelle avec un grand sourire amical, mon Père Ganesh-Noël ‘! …

Fêtant mon cher Ganesh, une fois de plus

Hier (jeudi 24), j’ai pensé que j’aurais le temps dans l’après-midi de traduire en français mon dernier article, mais ce que je devais absolument faire à Pondy le matin, et qui devait être fini à midi, a pris en fait toute la journée, alors je n’ai jamais eu le temps de faire cette traduction …

En outre, la traduction pourrait avoir encore à attendre un jour de plus, car aujourd’hui est une Journée Spéciale que je veux célébrer aussi absolument – comme désormais je le fais chaque année, pour la troisième année déjà (voir mon article plus ancien juste traduit après celui-ci:  labofevolution.wordpress.com/2017/08/27/au-pere-ganesh-noel/ ),   quelque soit la date exacte où ce jour tombe cette année-là.

Car aujourd’hui, c’est la «Ganesh Pudja», ou Ganesh’s Day, et non seulement l’Inde, du Sud et du Nord, célèbrent en ce moment avec beaucoup de joie, mais moi aussi!…

Et pour de bonnes raisons: c’est grâce à la générosité d’un ancien ami aurovilien, sans aucun doute inspiré par «Père Ganesh-Noël», que, il y a deux ans, pour Noël, quand le Service du Logement me donnait ce magnifique appartement à Luminosité, un studio en bas a également été mis à ma disposition: il est devenu mon petit bureau pour la plupart de mes travaux de recherche et d’enseignement, dans le cadre de ce «Laboratoire de l’Évolution – Centre pour l’Unité Humaine» (LOE-CHU) qui est mon travail officiel à Auroville depuis 1984. Le même ami a même ajouté aussi à ce cadeau principal quelques autres plus petits (comme un moniteur grand écran pour voir des films ou mes propres cours en petits groupes, et qui peut faire double emploi comme téléviseur à part entière chaque fois que je voudrai regarder de nouveau mon cher Roger Federer en pleine action, par exemple …).

Depuis cette première prière réelle à Ganesh il y a deux ans, ma vie matérielle est devenue considérablement plus facile à bien des égards, mais avec les aliments spéciaux nécessaires, outre de légers médicaments, pour résoudre un problème de santé persistant, ma “maintenance” (allocation mensuelle) était encore si serrée que dans le cas de toute dépense supplémentaire (quelque chose de cassé devant être remplacé …), je ne pouvais tout simplement pas le faire, c’était trop serré financièrement.

Donc, depuis deux ans, j’ai également fait ma part en aidant Ganesh à m’aider: j’ai postulé officiellement pour la petite Pension de retraite que le gouvernement français devrait m’accorder pour les quelques années que j’ai passées en France en tant que jeune Professeur certifiée de Lettres Classiques, juste avant de venir à Auroville …

Ô heureuse stupéfaction! Une pension m’était bel et bien dûe en effet, et malgré les obstacles administratifs sans fin (résolus l’un après l’autre par une merveilleuse jeune femme, la vice-consule au Consulat de France ici même à Pondy), cette pension est enfin sur le point de venir! … Mais comme mon ancien compte bancaire en France a été, je l’ai appris récemment, fermé depuis longtemps pour manque d’activité (!), il me fallait  m’adresser à une banque à Pondy-même pour ouvrir un compte … qui serait le réceptacle, pour les deux institutions françaises de retraite concernées, où verser l’abondance sans fin de ma pension mensuelle.

Au cours des deux dernières semaines, en dépit de la bonne volonté de la banque à Pondy, ce processus prenait un temps invraisemblable, en raison de plusieurs congés, plus une grève bancaire générale et tout ce qu’on peut imaginer d’autre …

Donc, hier, c’était en fait pourquoi j’étais de nouveau à Pondy: pour que ce compte soit enfin ouvert, avec un Numéro de Compte officiel que je pourrais alors communiquer immédiatement aux bureaux en France qui l’attendent toujours avec patience pour que toutes ces sommes en suspens puissent commencer à y être versées !…

Eh bien, alors que ce compte était censé être prêt, il n’était toujours pas prêt du tout. C’est seulement grâce à l’agent de la banque qui s’occupe de mon cas là-bas, et grâce à son bon cœur et sa gentillesse (sans doute sous l’influence secrète de Ganesh à nouveau …!), qu’à la fin de cette longue journée à Pondy tout a finalement été terminé et, dans le ciel qui devenait sombre, je suis repartie avec le précieux Numéro de Compte inscrit et marqué de tous les sceaux nécessaires de la banque pour avoir validité suffisamment officielle aux yeux des institutions françaises. Durant tout le chemin de retour vers Auroville et chez moi, mon cœur n’a pas arrêté de chanter, presque avec incrédulité: “Ca y est, c’est fait, c’est fait, c’est fait! …”

Et vous vous demandez pourquoi aujourd’hui je célèbre avec tant de jubilation et de gratitude mon si bon ami, Ganesh, qui en plus de tout le reste a réussi à faire en sorte que tout cela se produise juste à temps pour aujourd’hui, oui, pile pour son propre «Ganesh Pudja»? !

Bravo, mon merveilleux Ganesh, bravo !!!

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Celebrating dear Ganesh Again…

Yesterday (Thursday 24th) I thought I would have time in the afternoon to translate my latest post into French, but  what I had to do absolutely in Pondy in the morning and was supposed to be finished by midday, took instead the whole day, so I never had the time to do that translation…

Moreover, the translation might still have to wait one more day, for today is a Special Day that I want absolutely to celebrate – like nowadays I do every year, for the third year already (see my post https://labofevolution.wordpress.com/2016/03/18/father-ganesh-christmas/ ) whenever that Day falls on that year.

For today is ‘Ganesh Pudja’, or Ganesh’s Day, and not only the whole of India, South and North, is celebrating in great joy, but I am, too!!!

And for good reasons: it is thanks to the generosity of an old Aurovilian friend, no doubt inspired by ‘Father Ganesh-Christmas’, that when two years ago for Christmas I was being given by the Housing Service this wonderful apartment at Luminosity, the studio downstairs too has been put at my disposal: it became my little Office for most of my Research and Teaching work, all under that ‘Laboratory of Evolution – Centre for Human Unity’ (LOE-CHU) that is my official work in Auroville since 1984. The same friend added even to this main gift a few other smaller ones too (such as a great big screen Monitor on which to view films or my own courses in small groups, and which can double as a full-fledged TV whenever I may want to watch again my dear Roger Federer in full action, for example…).

Since that first real Prayer to Ganesh two years ago, my material life has become already considerably easier in many ways, but with the special foods needed, besides medicines, to cure a lingering health problem, my maintenance was still so tight that in case of any extra expense (something broken to be replaced…), I just could not do it, it was too tight financially.

So, since two years again, I have also done my own part in helping Ganesh help me: I have applied officially for the small Retirement Pension that should be owed to me by the French Government for the few years I spent in France as a young certified teacher in the Classics, just before coming to Auroville…

Lo and behold! The Pension was due indeed, and in spite of endless administrative hurdles (solved for me one after the other by a most wonderful young lady, the Vice-Consule at the French Consulate right here in Pondy), it is finally coming !… But as my old bank account in France had been, I learned recently, closed since long for lack of activity (!), I had to approach a bank in Pondy itself to open an account… which would be the receptacle for the two French Retirement Institutions concerned to pour into the endless bounty of my monthly Pension.

During the last two weeks, in spite of the goodwill of the bank in Pondy, that process was taking ages to be over with, because of several holidays, plus a general bank strike, and what not…

So yesterday, that was actually why I was once again in Pondy: to have that account at last opened, with an official Account Number that I could then immediately communicate to the Offices in France still waiting patiently with all the money that was to begin being poured in…!

Well, although it was supposed to be ready, it was still not ready at all. It is only thanks to the bank officer taking care of my case there, and thanks to his good heart and kindness (no doubt under the secret influence of Ganesh again…!), that, at the very end of that long day in Pondy, everything finally got to be all done, and in the darkening sky I left with the precious Account Number written down and stamped upon with all the needed seals from the bank to validate it officially enough for the French Institutions. All the way back home my heart kept singing, almost in disbelief, ‘It’s done, done, done!…’

And you wonder why today I am celebrating with so much glee and gratitude for my so excellent friend Ganesh, who managed on top of it all to make it happen just in time for today itself, yes, for his very own ‘Ganesh Pudja’?!

Well done, dearest Ganesh, well done!!!

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