Balancing in Ourselves the Masculine and the Feminine that are One

Almost everybody on Earth has by now come to know of the YIN-YANG symbol from the ancient Chinese Wisdom:

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It is the symbolic representation of all the polarities our mind is perceiving everywhere – including in our own life, where it is powerfully exemplified to start with by the polarity between the two opposite genders our physical body has to belong to: the Masculine or the Feminine – and in our human experience the Masculine has been having the upper hand over the Feminine for such a long time that it seems pretty much like for ever.

This present situation of course strongly encourages our mind to envisage everything as constituted in the same way of pairs of contraries that, extremely contrasted as they are by the Mind’s tendency to do so, seem bound to oppose each other in an endless struggle to win over the other, hence our impression that this Duality is an absolute and eternal Fact of Life.

But the very symbol of the YIN-YANG polarity shows without any doubt something quite different, if only we really look at it carefully.

Far from an actual Duality, what is shown is a Oneness: the Mystery of Mysteries that is called the Tao – another word for the Divine Reality. In this symbol, even those two universal Principles called the Yin and the Yang never stand each one on their own, in isolation: it is always the YIN and the YANG together, for each of them always contains the other one, even if only in the most minimal proportion. They cannot exist without each other, for it is only in relation to each other that they exist at all. And that relation between the two is never static, it constantly balances itself out in an instability and constant newness that is Life itself: constant change.

What a far cry from this sense of wholeness and balance is our present mental perception of the Polarities as two principles trying to win over each other for absolute supremacy and eternal dominance of the other!… Our society, and within it the education that, from birth on, our families give to all of us, deeply inculcates in each of us the sense of a gender-based identity that will pervade our entire life in all its aspects, if we want to conform to the expectations, first from our parents and then from the other humans beings around us, of a gender-based ‘proper’ behavior. Boys become afraid to show any trait attributed usually to girls, and of course girls, afraid to show any trait supposedly boyish. We all end up living in a gender-based prison, which we accept all the more easily because we have come to believe this all reflects the true reality of our being, and of Reality in general.

We are totally missing the point that the ancient symbol, in its deep Wisdom, was meant to awaken us to.

But things are changing.

The current spiritual awakening that touches more and more people all over the planet in this new evolutive step brings up with it an increasing awareness in many that our present lifetime is not the only one we have experienced. In some of those other lifetimes some of us start even remembering to some extent, we were of the opposite gender, This is only  to be expected, for the spirit in each of us carries in itself both the Masculine and the Feminine principles together, and needs to feel free to express the qualities of both as required by the circumstances, or just its own inner choice.

This is why there is since about fifty years such an increase in the number of human beings who find in themselves a tendency to be gay or lesbian, or to change the sex they were born with, because their inner sense of identity doesn’t accept any more to be restricted to the gender-based rules of behavior and dress imposed on them by their society – often with the heaviness of human laws and cruel punishments added to the original scriptures of their religion.

But Evolution is a divine Law of Growth that no human power can stop, and even the most cruel repression cannot compel for ever people to act against what they truly feel. Part of that irresistible growth is the re-unification in each of us of the Masculine and the Feminine, and the free expression of both kinds of qualities in any proportion each of us may feel appropriate at any given moment. It is already begun, and soon no one but the most archaic consciousnesses will be shocked, for it is a new ‘normality’ that is being created in our midst by the Evolutive Force, which will transform our societies into the places of inner freedom that they must become if they want to survive in Humanity’s truer Future.

Well, I am glad that in my own individual being the very same process of re-unification of the Masculine and the Feminine, already there of course at the soul level, Image 1 symbolized by the Unicorn,

and started since long at the mental level, Image 2

has now taken a major step forward at the emotional and vital level too:

Quite obviously, as represented especially through those two last notebook covers I presented in recent posts, the Feminine Image as well as the Masculine Image 3 were both much too extreme, and so, both inappropriate if allowed to act separately; but through the joining of the two that has spontaneously just happened, the qualities of both together have suddenly begun manifesting themselves in a most satisfactory way since the melding of the two, giving me the needed balance between the two, a living, variable balance that I can modify constantly as the situation requires… or as my own inner sense of divinely inspired Freedom happens to prefer at that moment!…

What a divinely simple Transformative Process that lets no quality ever acquired in our other lifetimes go wasted in this one: if our longing for a certain quality is strong and persistent enough, and if we remain open, trusting that we can change, the transfer and the melding do happen, and changed we are indeed!…

 

 

 

 

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Only Through this Blog as a Whole Will You Get the Overall Picture

Since I started this Research Blog in 2011 as one more way to reach out to other people anywhere who might be interested, each of my posts has inevitably addressed only one part of the Full Picture needed to understand how it all works within ourselves once we consciously take up the path of Conscious Evolution, particularly as this Integral Yoga Sri Aurobindo and the Mother devised especially for this purpose.

It may have started in its own limited way long before, sometimes already in our early childhood, with strange happenings now and then that we didn’t even know were ‘spiritual experiences, although later on we may have realized they actually were. It has been the case with me, so I know, but still it is only when I read for the first time the first lines of ‘The Life Divine’, my first book by Sri Aurobindo (https://labofevolution.wordpress.com/2016/05/30/my-first-contact-with-sri-aurobindo-1971/), that my whole life has really entered consciously that Path, which it has never left since. Massive experience after massive experience ensued, already while I was still in France, and then as soon as I arrived in Auroville it was as if the Inner Motor was finally turned really on for good.

So my visitors shouldn’t judge of my present overall spiritual condition only from the recent posts in which I have purposely revealed some of the inner flaws that, like anyone else, I too have had or still have to conquer – or in fact to offer at some point in total humility to our Divine Mother, the Divine as the eternal Mother of the divine child eternally growing in me: for only with Her all-powerful Help can we ever truly overcome an inner obstacle… or simply feel the obstacle suddenly melt and altogether vanish from our being.

It is our Psychic Being, the being of the Soul within us, that gives us that spontaneous, deep and irresistible, childlike Love for the Divine, and the total trust in Him/Her that makes us spontaneously give ourselves totally to that Wonder of Love and Wisdom and Power and Delight that we gradually find is also the One, unique Being our own Higher Self is a particular aspect of, from eternity and for eternity.

So if you read more of those past posts I have also written here since 2011, you will see that the required Psychicisation and Spiritualisation processes have been actually going full blast in me since decades, and far from abating, it is only increasing ever, either in depth or in vastness of the experiences lived again and again in various forms so that the entire being, down to its very body-cells, becomes more and more impregnated with the Divine Reality hiding secretly in each of us, waiting to be discovered and lived ever more constantly as our new normal life.

The little amusing story that I wrote about in my just previous post, is only the latest of those ever surprising advances one may see manifest in oneself, as our Divine Mother makes good use of absolutely any circumstance in our outer life to help us understand something more, or become able to do or be something we couldn’t before. In that way She cuts out every time better one more facet of the future fully revealed divine diamond that each of us is…

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So for grasping the entire Process through which She does in each of us at every moment this wonderful revealing, it is also not enough to read just the last few posts I have written. Each and every post from before has also presented some other part of this Process, that might be useful for you personally, if not today, perhaps at some later point when you suddenly remember having read it and its contents become at once exactly relevant for that moment in your own life…

That’s what Conscious Evolution is about, being simply described this way or that other way along my posts, showing how charmingly varied and ever unexpected this whole Process is, that our entire life gradually becomes, as we enter more and more into the World of the Wonderful.

 

 

 

 

How My Inner Family Got Suddenly Extended Beyond Time and Space

In a recent post ( https://labofevolution.wordpress.com/2017/09/09/the-rich-complexity-of-our-being/ ), I was quoting one of Sri Aurobindo’s ‘Letters on Yoga’, ending with this very important indication of what needs to happen inside one’s inextricable inner complexity, if one wants to enter the Yoga of conscious evolution that the Integral Yoga is:

‘The remedy can only come from the parts of the being that are already turned towards the Light. To call in the light of the Divine Consciousness from above, to bring the psychic being to the front and kindle a flame of aspiration which will awaken spiritually the outer mind and set on fire the vital being, is the way out.’

One can immediately see that the two things Sri Aurobindo indicates that need to happen will lead exactly to the first two parts of the total transformation of our being, called the Spiritualisation (from above), and the Psychicisation (from within), both necessary to a large extent before the third and final transformation, called the Supramentalisation, can stabilize and complete what has been accomplished by the first two stages.

Until then, one is bound to remain in an overall state of ‘work in progress’, but still some changes may already happen that are so considerable that they make us feel and behave already like a different person!

What is extremely important, though, is that, in an evolutive endeavor, no outer part in us can be allowed to distance the other outer parts too much or for too long: you have got in yourself that eagle and that hare, but also that tortoise, and the three of them, in spite of their very different speeds, must be made to reach the finish line together, for they form actually a team and are all indispensable for the final result…

In my personal case, given as an example, the whole process took recently a quite funny turn with the apparition on my successive little notebooks of cover drawings depicting symbolically but unmistakably certain members of my own Inner Family (see my post, https://labofevolution.wordpress.com/2017/09/10/introducing-my-own-inner-family/ , for  the pictures and how each one applied to me).

Well, in the month that has elapsed since, something even funnier happened: an even more unexpected fourth cover appeared, that was to play an important role too, but in that case, from beyond Time and Space!…

Of course within each of us there is already, from beyond Time and Space, our Higher Self (above) and our Psychic Being (deep within) that are both eternal and divine: for this very reason they are the two great Helpers mentioned by Sri Aurobindo in my quote, for our repeated evolutive adventures in our various incarnations on Earth in a human body.

But the part of me represented on that fourth recent notebook was obviously not of such a high spiritual level. I had not selected it this time but simply found it, just by itself, at the place within Auroville that we call our ‘Free Store’. I was then only halfway through   the Pink Teddy Bear notebook and the emotional upheavals it had signaled to me in advance, so the arrival of that new notebook already so early, and the fact that it wasn’t lined like the ones I always choose for my notes, intrigued me, and I took it,

Still, the new member of the family presenting itself in that unexpected way wasn’t really what I would have consciously chosen, and I had hesitated even after taking it:

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Do you see what I mean?… Yes, it was again a bear, but this time, not exactly of the cute kind, to say the least!!!

What a beautiful beast, though, in its superbly powerful body, a solid mass of muscles all perfectly relaxed under an immaculate fur… Such a supple and harmonious strength, so spontaneously and irresistibly sure of itself!…

Although rather intimidated and a little apprehensive of what such a tough new member of my inner family would bring to me next, and not knowing yet at all what potentially dangerous part of me it represented, still I didn’t go back on my adoption, and I put the notebook aside near my bed, for later use.

But I had hardly put it aside that I had the next evening to pick it up again, for I wanted to note down the list of those among my existing songs that had a rhythm related to the music sung and danced in Africa particularly; I was feeling the sudden need to draw such a list, I didn’t know why. Then I fell asleep.

In the very early hours of the morning, while it was still dark, I woke up with the sound of the music and words of a new song, entering my consciousness with all the impressive power of a train arriving in a station, a song that joyfully called for “Africa, Africa” to “wake up now”!…

The cheerful and powerful lyrics were noted down at once as they arrived, and that covered the page just next to the one where I had written the list the night before. I was stunned.

But that was not all: the following week too, more songs came in the same way, all of them on Africa, or later on, to the slightly different rhythms of the French Caribbean islands both my parents come from, although I myself was born and grew up in Africa, in the then French colonies.

I spent two full weeks receiving in that way several songs based on both those cultures  where song and dance are really expressions of the body itself, in the strong connection it has with the land and the Earth as a whole.

The effect on my entire being was tremendous, I realized after some time: simply to sing and dance all day long those so powerful and rhythmic new songs was communicating more and more to my own body the very sense of strength and self-confidence it was lacking before… and that were expressed so well in the massive but at the same time lithe body of the bear on the cover of that very notebook I had unexpectedly started to use for those special notes, while still using the Pink Teddy Bear one for my usual daily notes!…

But why a Polar Bear, and not a brown one?!…

When I asked myself that question, the answer came immediately from within:

It was because that Bear wasn’t representing just my relationship to Africa as it is today, in this lifetime, but also the much older, very deep relationship I have had with that vast and massive Land of Africa since ancient times, through specific cultures that are still alive in the far memories I have of those times, including subconsciously when the climate was different and the Sahara not yet a desert of endless dunes… A time when I myself had been a strong and fearless warrior, the quiet power of whom was now re-entering my life to complement and balance out the fragility and self-doubt of my present physical body, further weakened by my present emotional being’s vulnerability… a characteristic inherited also from another lifetime, interestingly enough, but that time lived in France, a few centuries back.

What a wonderful gift I was receiving from beyond Time and Space!

By combining with each other harmoniously, those two ways of being, each one too extreme in its own way, were giving me at last the emotional mature stability, self-confidence and physical strength that I had been longing for in this lifetime!…

 

 

 

22nd September: Happy Birthday again, dear Bilbo & Frodo Baggins!

Bilbo Baggins, now well-known the world-over, “was born in the year of 2890”, and his much younger cousin Frodo “in the year of 2968 in the Third Age (1290 and 1368 respectively in ShireReckoning.)”, as you’ll find in Wikipedia for easy reference.

Yes, they both  had the same birthday: today itself, September 22nd!

I will not let that cherished ‘Hobbit Day’, as it is now called in many places of the world, pass without celebrating it, the Hobbit way: good  and abundant cheer, and only short and merry speeches!

This is exactly the way it was celebrated in the first live acting film, by Peter Jackson, adapting to the big screen in 2001 Tolkien’s major opus: ‘The Lord of the Rings’. Here, down below, is one moment when the two Baggins being celebrated together were side by side in the midst of the collective hobbity merriment taking place at their shared residence, ‘Bag’s End’, and of course under the nearby Party Tree of Hobbiton, their happy village in the green rolling Hills of their beloved Shire, hiding in a little cozy corner of the vast and dangerous Middle-earth:

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“The films, too, are amazing in their own right. I went to see the first one, one Xmas- and at the end of the film the packed house was completely, utterly silent, stunned into a disbelief that what they had witnessed wasn’t some kind of documentary about a real world! I have never witnessed anything like it before or since.The audience almost crept away in shock. It was most extraordinary.”

The above comment isn’t by me; it is actually by a Tolkien fan (thank you, ‘Honda Oxford’!…) who wrote it this morning on a site where an article had been written for today’s occasion. But when I happened to read it there, that comment was expressing so exactly, to the word, what I myself too experienced on my first time watching that first LOTR film, I decided to include it here just as if it were my own comment. The music also, by Howard Shore, was absolutely stunning: just perfect, be it for the Hobbits, the Elves, the Dwarves, the Humans or the Orcs!… What a totally amazing feeling of truly entering that Middle-earth I had known until then only through the (already so magnificent) books by Tolkien! Watching that first film has been an unbelievable awe, moment after moment, which is still etched in my memory with the power of special wonderfulness…

Why is all this so important to me, even though I am a ‘spiritual person’ practicing most seriously for forty-six years already the Integral Yoga created for Conscious Evolution by Sri Aurobindo and the Mother?… I will tell you that in another post, hopefully soon… As for today, it is dedicated to my beloved inner friends Bilbo and Frodo of the Shire!

Post Scriptum: I just watched again that great Birthday Party in ‘The fellowship of the Ring’. In case you’d like also to give yourself that treat, here is the link, and it has two parts that follow each other automatically if you let it happen…! Wonderful fun!!!

Celebrating the Birthday of ‘The Hobbit’

Happy 80th Birthday, Bilbo Baggins!

J.R.R. Tolkien’s ‘The Hobbit’ was published on September 21, 1937. Eighty years later, we celebrate the beloved classic with a look at why Bilbo Baggins still reigns supreme.
J.R.R. Tolkien in 1955

J.R.R. Tolkien, author of ‘The Hobbit’ and ‘The Lord of the Rings’ trilogy, photographed in 1955.

(Photo: Haywood Magee/Getty Images)

Eighty years ago, in September of 1937, when the evil of fascism was poisoning Europe, and the world teetered on the brink of the most devastating war in history, a new hero was born. He was 50 years old, about three feet tall, with a beer belly, slightly pointed ears, and feet so hairy they needed to be brushed. His name was Bilbo Baggins and he was a pipe-weed-smoking, food-obsessed homebody, of a breed of creature no one had ever heard of before: a hobbit. Bilbo and his woolly toes stepped out of The Hobbit or, There and Back Again, a fantasy novel about Bilbo’s adventures with a wizard named Gandalf and a pack of dwarves on a quest to steal back their gold from an evil dragon. It is hailed as one of the finest, most beloved classics of English children’s literature.

Bilbo’s creator, J.R.R. (John Ronald Reuel) Tolkien, was a professor at the University of Oxford in England who was fascinated by invented languages, Norse myths and epic legends of dragons, dwarves and swashbuckling warriors like the Anglo Saxon prince, Beowulf. Tolkien would perform the classic poem about Beowulf aloud in his English Lit class, shouting, “Hwæt!” (Old English for “Yo!”) to begin the poem (and wake up his students.) Yet when Tolkien created his own hero, it wasn’t a monster-slaying prince or a hammer-wielding Norse god. Bilbo emerged from a single phrase formed in Tolkien’s mind while grading boring student exams: “In a hole in the ground there lived a hobbit.” Ten words that blossomed into his first novel, The Hobbit or, There and Back Again, published in September of 1937, followed in 1955 by The Lord of the Rings trilogy. All together the books sold hundreds of millions of copies the world over, launched a multi-billion dollar Oscar-winning movie franchise, and spawned a legion of fans devoted to this very day to arguing the fine points of “Tolkien legendarium”—the exquisite details of the imaginary worlds and languages in his books.

 

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And there is much more to learn and enjoy reading (and watching!) in this great article, the origin of which is at this address:

https://www.biography.com/news/the-hobbit-jrr-tolkien-facts

With all my thanks and appreciation to Carolyn Jacobs, the author…

About ‘The Rich Complexity of our Being’

A long and very interesting comment has just been posted about my recent article, ‘The Rich Complexity of Our Being’ (https://labofevolution.wordpress.com/2017/09/09/the-rich-complexity-of-our-being/).

It deserves an equally long, or even longer answer, as it is on various points that probably have been questions for other readers as well, so I’m bringing that long comment right here and will use it for this new post, which will be a kind of dialogue between that friend and me, through my answers (in italics) interwoven with the questions and other points he raised in his comment:

Bhaga,
Your quote from Shri Aurobindo was both clarifying and leading me to a further question.
As I’m learning more about Swedenborg’s ideas or interpreted journeys I see increasing similarities to Aurobindo’s ideas. Though granted it is presumptive to say anything about Aurobindo’s work as I know next to nothing just what I’ve glimmered in your blog.

I salute in passing the great Swedenborg, whom I may have indeed studied more long ago, as you do now, had I not have already a vision even vaster – truly all-encompassing – from the even more immense and multitudinous experience of  Sri Aurobindo and the Mother.

2 of my guiding ideas.
1st, A wise man once told me, “there are no new truths”. (how could there be?) Beware of anyone who is selling such.

Of course there can be only one real Truth. But that Truth is not, as our mind, by its very nature divisive, makes us believe, one single point of view which makes all the other points of view necessarily false. The real Truth (the Supramental Truth, as Sri Aurobido and the Mother call it),  is the complete Reality of All There Is in its actually all encompassing wholeness, spherical so to say. It includes within Itself all those opposite points of view that to our mind seem to be contradicting each other. The mental truth constantly says “either this, or that”, while the Supramental Truth says “This, and that, and also that, and everything else too”. The best symbolic representation of this Truth as total Wholeness is the spherical shape of the Matrimandir, the central building of Auroville, itself founded as “a City at the service of Truth”:

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The problem of the Mental Consciousness is that its vision is by nature limited, and so, unable to see and comprehend the infinite Totality that the Truth is. So if it is correct that there can be no “new truths” as such, still our present perception of the total Truth may not be complete yet at all, and we may very well have still to discover new aspects of the complete Truth that we were not aware of before… and that might be called ‘new truths ‘ in that sense.

Moreover, not only is our mental perception terribly and inevitably limited, but that limited perception itself is also constantly altered  and modified by any mental beliefs each of us may happen to have: our beliefs will constantly add their own filter or coloration or twist to the perception in itself, turning it sometimes into the very opposite of what it really is. Our contemporary Science, for example, through its present materialistic belief system, is making itself blind to anything that may be quite real, but not acceptable as such within the parameters that Science still holds as those defining reality. With such a ‘reductionist’ outlook on everything, our Science misses some important aspects of the Total Truth that were already known to ancient cultures but are for this reason presently excluded of what is accepted as real by our Science. Those forgotten or rejected aspects of Truth will have then to be re-discovered gradually, again as if they were “new truths”.

2nd, God is everywhere always broadcasting to all unceasingly. Obvious when you think about it.

God may be indeed “everywhere always broadcasting to all unceasingly”, but the receivers are of all kinds and capacities in their individual uniqueness!….

But wait!… It seems this is exactly what you are saying too: you do put the question first, but then you yourself give the answer right away as well:

So, why the myriad churches, religions, prophets and saints and sages?
Up until very recently there hasn’t been a possibility of global communication. Because of all the different, times and lands, peoples, cultures, intelligences and customs on this planet this Unitive-intelligent-cosmic-being has had to appear throughout all these varying time places and peoples, in whatever way would be accessible to them. Something like the variety you hear in NDE stories.

Exactly, I would say!

For instance, the Old Testament stories happened for some tribes in an area of north Africa. Then the Christos came as a reformer. Look what some zealots and political maneuverings made of that.
This leads me to believe that there isn’t a best, much less an only way, or teaching.

How much I agree with you on that!…

And this is what Sri Aurobindo and the Mother themselves say too, mind you; even within the overall method of Integral Yoga they proposed, they advocated and used for each of their very different disciples an equally diverse way of guiding and helping them on their gradual discovery of what would become for each of them his or her unique way, similar to that of some others perhaps, but only to a certain extent.

Though because of ego’s need to somehow feel special

Do you mean ‘superior’? Because in truth, we are all special indeed, but that doesn’t mean in any way that we are superior to anyone else, as we all are an expression of the Divine, with each an equal potential to manifest our aspect of the Divine better and better…

the followers of each teacher and teaching need to assert theirs is the best or true way.

For sure there can be no “only true way”, as that is much too vague and universal a statement, making it a claim of absolute exclusivity of the Truth.

Nevertheless, if someone’s followers do say that theirs is the best way, but add immediately the specific spiritual goal or kind of spiritual achievement that the way they are following is best for, then they may be quite correct. The kind of training for running a marathon is not the same as for running a 100mts sprint, is it? And it is rather important to choose a coach who has experience and success with the kind of race you want to run, for s/he will be the best for that, obviously.

Or if you want to go to the Himalayas, obviously again you will choose a guide who has been there, and not one who has been instead to the Dead Sea. Both goals are equally valid in themselves, but depending on the one you are interested in, you will most certainly take the guide who has been there successfully, and so can lead you there too.

This reminds me of Krishna Das’s answer to what is the best practice? “The one you do”.

Quite a sensible fellow, this Krishna Das!…  But still, that statement too would need  the mention of your aim to be complete: if the practice you do is the wrong practice for what you are trying to achieve, that will not be of any help for you anyway, or it might even create in you obstacles and difficulties for reaching your real goal. Just one example to clarify this point: the kind of muscles you acquire through body-building will be rather a hindrance if you are trying to become a great swimmer…!

The same wise man said beware of ‘only solutions’.

If they smack of the usual mental exclusivism, your wise man is right; and yet, it is true also that one safety lock can only be opened by the key meant for it … and the equivalent can apply for spiritual goals too.

Which I, now say this as, ‘it doesn’t need to be either/or. It can be both/plus.

In general terms, yes, but again, for specific needs you may require specific means, employed either by you if you can, of better by the divine loving Wisdom that will take care of your evolutive process at every step if you entrust it to the care of what we can call the Divine as our Divine Mother.

Wisdom guides have specific work to do here and it will come thru them as specifically as a person of that time, place, talents or tendencies or strengths of the guide, saint Avatar or whatever.

Well, we do agree on that, it would seem!

It’s the devotees who don’t like ambiguity, who want to nail everything down. Being able to quote chapter and verse as is said about Christian Bible pundits.

This is quite true of those disciples (in any path) who tend, through a too rigid mind, to give more importance to the letter than to the spirit, and want everything codified and carved in stone, so as not to have to feel and apply at all the spirit behind the letter. But in the case of the evolutive, and so, all-inclusive path that the Integral Yoga is, there is often the necessity of identifying for example more precisely the various parts of our being, as Sri Aurobindo explained in the text I quoted in that previous article of mine we have been now commenting about together… I hope my answers  have been helpful!

Keep up the good work,
Silrak

Introducing my own Inner Family

At the end of my previous post, which was about ‘The Rich Complexity of our Being’, I called all those various inner parts of us, in a half joking manner,  our ‘Inner Family’… A rather dysfunctional one to start with, it seems, for most of us!… But let’s not lose hope: harmony can be learned, also within ourselves, through the practice of the Integral Yoga meant  precisely for that integral transformation.

Well, over the years I started having vague impressions of what the main inner parts of me looked like, so to say, or rather what they felt like to me, but for long it remained a very vague, blurry kind of picture, never reaching the stage of a clear one for any of them.

But then something happened in the last few years, which enables me today to introduce you to at least some of those members of my Inner Family, with , lo and behold, some actual (symbolic) images of them!!!

What happened is that since many-many years I have been keeping notes of my dreams and of my experiences at the cellular level. For keeping regularly such an important record for my research work about Conscious Evolution, I regularly got quite simply some little notebooks, the kind that kids use in school, from our internal small general store in Auroville.

For years the covers were photos of beautiful landscapes from all over the world, for awakening a concern for the environment in the kids who would use them. It was really nicely done. I myself enjoyed a lot looking at those spectacular places on the Earth that I would probably never visit, but at least I could know of and admire that way.

But one day when I needed soon a new notebook and went looking for one, all that was available was in a completely different style: the covers now were amusing drawings, probably more likely to attract children. Most of them didn’t attract me at all, though. Until I found one that immediately made me laugh out loud, right in the store, with the joy of recognition:

‘But this is my mental being!!!’ I exclaimed under my breath, and started smiling at it with total glee. The drawing was this one:

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I loved it!!! Without an instant of hesitation, I took it home and was eager to start using it when the previous one did come to an end.

This notebook was quite thick actually, so it stayed with me for an enjoyable rather long time, although I wrote on it daily, and often quite lengthy entries. But still after a while I had to go and find the next one…

This time, no funny drawings on the covers of the available notebooks. A different style again, and not inspiring at all. None of those that I looked at I liked, so what to do?… I kept still looking in the little pile. And suddenly, down at the very bottom, what I saw took my breath away. It was this:

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‘Oh my, a Unicorn!… What a beauty… So powerful, yet so calmly at rest in that lovely protected clearing, in that soft Soul Light… Wow, this must be a symbolic image for something of my Soul, of my Psychic Being! This picture is a pure Blessing from the Divine. I’m taking this home.’

There was one more notebook with the very same cover, of course I gladly added it to the first one.

Those two were again of the thick kind, so they took care of my daily notes for quite a few months. It was pure bliss to look at the cover every time I would use these two notebooks, the second one right after the first was finished. When still finally the time to find a new one came once more, it was with a heavy heart that I went again to that notebook shelf in the store: how could I ever find anything as great as that so resplendent and peaceful Unicorn?…

Surprise: the funny drawings were back on the covers for the whole new pile that was there. I sighed. Would I find again something at least worthwhile, even if only again in that funny style?

Almost at once it came up, quite funny indeed, and yet so charming in its own way:

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Just a split second looking at it, and then I knew, and smiled a huge, sweet grin of recognition again: this was my emotional being, of course! Unmistakable, in every detail of it, just like for the one I had found before that was also such a perfect image of my mental being!!!

I had to laugh softly, thinking of my emotional being so wonderfully rendered in that unexpected but so true portrait of it!…. ‘But wait a minute’, I suddenly thought, ‘what does that mean, getting now this specific little cover after the two wonderful Unicorns?’ Well, I had some idea what it meant, and I wasn’t sure I liked it: it meant that after the wonderful, long inner period that had rested and reinforced my inner strength and purity of purpose – right at the cellular level of my being – the Divine was now warning me somehow, with a smile, through this new so cute and amusing little cover, that my emotional being was going to get some further training, probably so as to be reinforced and purified too!

The ‘Unicorn’ period was still not over, as the second one of those notebooks was still only halfway through, so I kind of forgot what was likely to come next for my sadhana, But several weeks back the second ‘Unicorn’ notebook did come to an end and then came the turn of the cute, sweet girly teddy-bear all in pink, with her pink heart balloon begging for love just as her shy smile did…

My visitors here on this blog know only of the emotional shocks I mentioned, which related to Blogging, but of course that vulnerability is there also in other areas of my life, in an extreme way that as a young adult I soon saw had no cause at all in this lifetime. As I discovered later in Auroville (while in a deliberate trance), it is actually one of the two major ancient problems from another life, that I scripted myself to take up again in this lifetime, knowing that my deep spiritual progress this time around would enable me at last to heal that scarred and scared part of myself once and for all.

Well, when that waiting little notebook came finally to be used, oh my, that was it indeed!!! Since that month of July, emotional shocks from the most unexpected quarters have simply rained on me like hail. I was grateful to the Divine that thanks to this gentle but so clear warning through the new notebook’s cover, I was ready, and didn’t take anything too badly…! As you may have noticed in the end of my post about the shocks related to Blogging, a very liberating sense of humor started even to express itself about it all, right in my emotional being itself… So it is still for the time being a ‘Work in progress’, no doubt, but it is progressing indeed!

Now that you have some idea of what at least those main members of my Inner Family are like in my own case, what I will describe in future posts of the evolutive process as experienced by each of them will be, I hope, a livelier and funnier read, while giving you also, most importantly, a good example of what the Integral Yoga means in daily life…

 

 

 

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