The sudden infection of that long standing, slow-healing wound (small , before the infection) on my left calf didn’t come up ‘by chance’ (as we like to say…), of course.
Not so surprisingly, it came right at the end of a whole inner process on the psychological level, for me to get rid of a panic and hiding problem that wasn’t from this lifetime, but from another one – in a country, period and circumstances I had already found out about, years ago, in a trance deliberately sought for that purpose, like I had done earlier for the other main psychological problem I was suffering from in this lifetime, that had its origin also in yet another lifetime.
Over the years that followed I had healed successfully already that first main problem, but hadn’t addressed the second one yet… and it came up unexpectedly (I should have known in advance, but it’s actually good that I didn’t expect it to happen…) and quite violently in me, right when I was so happily writing that long overdue book I have announced in one of my most recent posts, ‘The Dam Is Now Starting to Open’ (https://labofevolution.wordpress.com/2018/08/04/the-dam-is-now-starting-to-open/ ).
It was at once obvious to me that this old problem was rising up again precisely because it was time to also heal that one, so I inwardly rolled up my sleeves and got to work.
But again not alone, though: with the kind help again of my friend Danayah*, who happened to be again around for some time. And someone else also, now right among us Aurovilians here: a man, with similar talents and skills as she had, and enough inner integrity too. I didn’t intend at all to combine their help, but it so happened that I ended up meeting the two of them one after the other, with beneficial results from both, in just the right sequence for the first result to lead into the next as if both therapists had been working as a team to help me!… And I have no doubt they in fact did, although unknowingly, with the Divine orchestrating the whole thing…
As usual with me for such help, it was mostly facilitation that I needed, and once in the light trance required, I was able to inwardly deal with the situation that arose (between my present consciousness and that of that specific previous personality of mine) in just the right spontaneous way to indeed heal in the end the previous personality from the problem that had kept it (and my present me!…) in such dire straits for so long before.
I know very well that this kind of powerful inner event, for someone who has never yet lived through any direct experience of something like that, will seem rather incredible and far fetched. Yet it feels so natural, simple and normal while it is happening within one’s consciousness, and when, on top of it, it is followed by undeniable deep changes in one’s behavior like the ones that appeared within myself in both cases, the first problem and now also the second one, it becomes just a fact of life….
In which way was all this related to the sudden infection in my left calf?…
Well, the vibrational memory of the ancient trauma suffered by this earlier personality (plus the other similar traumas experienced also by several more personalities later …) was still stored in the cells of my body, particularly the legs, symbolically representing on the physical level the difficulty those traumas caused in me for going forward boldly in my outer projects. When these traumatic memories in the cells were at last released, it was a big progress for my whole being, but on the short term it caused all those old toxins to be released in the lymphatic system, with that originally small wound there becoming the perfect way out for them.
Once infected, the small wound became bigger simply because I normally never have any such problem; I didn’t even know what to put as a dressing, so what I improvised in order to still be able to go around wasn’t adequate at all, and after a few days, it fostered and amplified the infection rather than stopping it!… Still I attended one more meeting, as I knew it was important for the Newcomer concerned… but when the meeting was over some of the other Aurovilians present ended up telling me the odor from my leg was alarming,…!
At that point I realized at last the seriousness of the matter and called in for help my precious friend Dr Bérengère and her deep Ayurvedic knowledge – she had already before been able to diagnose and describe the psychological problem just from taking my pulse(s) – and again this time she immediately knew which Ayurvedic medicinal oil would heal my wound. Another friend informed us of a special, international brand of ready–to-apply, non-sticky dressings, available right at our own Auroville Health Centre (on the outskirts of Auroville, an older sibling to our present centrally located clinic, called ”Santé’, the French word for ‘Health’).
Under the name ‘Bactigras’, those large dressings, of gauze prepared with paraffin and Chlorhexidine Acetate – which I found on Internet is not an antibiotic but a more inocuous although effective disinfectant – have been a pure blessing for me, this is why I mention them here by name (for no financial or other personal profit whatsoever!) so that some of my visitors on this Research Blog may in case of need benefit from this potentially very useful information (see http://www.smith-nephew.com/canada/products/advanced-wound-management/bactigras/ ).
But those dressings were still a bit too sticky and painful to take out for my wound, quite large and deep by that time; so I added to each dressing, before putting it on, several drops of the Ayurvedic oil, spread on its entire surface, and with that addition it became not only the perfect, fully non-sticky dressing, but at the same time the best one for healing too!…
This at last appropriate and effective outer care was enhanced all along by the dietary changes that my cells were, as usual, also indicating to me as the best for the situation, considering always not only the local problem, but also the needs of my whole organism to deal with it properly,
What an immense pride and gratitude I have for those cells of mine who, with my active outer help and inner encouragement, have managed to get rid relatively so fast of what was actually a limb-threatening infection – and any local infection somewhere may very well become a life-threatening one, and finally cause the death of the person – as in the case, alas, of my Aurovilian friend Sharanam*, only a few years ago, from what started out as a mere tooth infection. The hospitals, with all their heavy machinery and drugs, haven’t been able to save her then, so I consider myself quite lucky not to have had to end up there too, as she had to.
I really thank the Divine Grace above all, for I know the risk has been there for me too, but I have been somehow made to escape it, at home with only my own chosen means: the doctor of my and my cells’ liking, with the Ayurvedic and other natural medicines that my body as well as the doctor said were the right ones for its cure.
As per this writing, only a small hole is still there, nicely filled up to the correct level already, but not yet covered with new skin like the rest of what had become a seven by seven centimeters wound, now blending all right with the surrounding skin. There is good hope that this small hole too will close in the weeks to come, it’s just a question of persevering care and love on my part for this spot on my body that still needs special attention. But since three weeks my body and I are able again to go up and down stairs, and jump, and run, and dance too, so all the fun of Life is back, hopefully to stay for a long while ahead yet, with a fully repaired calf skin to boot!
(Dancer and photo credit: https://www.phoenixdancetheatre.co.uk/work/phoenix-at-home/ )
Once again, as in all the other times when, while living in Auroville, I have been faced with a serious physical condition, what a deep and profitable learning experience it has been, both at the psychological and the cellular level of my being – for of course all of it is interconnected… and ultimately one !…
So at least a summary of it all had to be told on this Blog of Conscious Evolution, so that its visitors too become aware of how much all the dimensions of our being intermingle in this overall process of Life… and all the more if, in someone’s consciousness and intent, Life itself has become a constant spiritual process of Evolution, through Sri Aurobindo and the Mother’s Integral Yoga.